There is no PLAN

I'm not going to go on a crash diet to get to a healthy weight. That makes no sense. To be healthy, you have to eat healthy, and do activities that make you healthy. A crash diet is not in any way a part of those two concepts.

A crash diet is one that you restrict the types of foods you eat, the amount of calories you take it, and most importantly the proper nutrients that your body needs. That doesn't sound like a good idea for keeping your body energized and alive.

I've spent a lot of time and money on different diet/programs out there. To name a few, Weight Watchers, Adkins, South Beach, The Belly Fat Cure, The Fat Flush Plan, The Zone Diet.... in all honestly, out of the 28 years of my life, I almost feel I've tried some sort of diet plan, and failed except for once.

When I was in nursing school, I finally had enough of being unhealthy. So I chose to do something about it. I chose to eat healthier and I chose to exercise every day. I lost over 70 pounds and felt wonderful. After graduating from nursing school, I have gained the weight back. Every year, more weight has crept back onto this 5 foot 1 inch frame. WAY too much weight.

I am now in the morbidly obese category of weight ranges. It makes me sad. I am the only one that has let this happen, and I am the only one who can change it. It isn't going to be easy, but I am willing to do the work. I want to feel good about myself. I want to look in the mirror and not cringe. I want to be able to pull clothes out of my closet and go. I want to be able to stand naked in front of my husband and not feel ugly, or cover up my stomach with a shirt.

Most importantly, I don't want this short life to pass me by and at the end say to myself "I didn't do all the things I wanted because I was heavy."

While there is no exact plan to follow, I know what I want to do. I want to eat the foods I love, with a healthy twist. I want to feel empowered and energetic by the exercises and activities I choose to do. I don't want to restrict myself from food groups because that only leads to boring, binges and failure. Been there, done that.

Last, I want to be accountable. I may not want people in my life to know my weight right now. But I'm willing to stare that number in the face and post it daily for strangers to see. Hopefully someone stumbles upon this blog, and supports me in my journey. If not, I always have myself....and it's time to love that person all the way through.