There are only so many things a person can control at one given time. For the past six months I have been trying to work a job on the nightshift that I loathed, get pregnant again, and kept telling myself that the time was now to lose weight.
Well I failed at all three. I couldn't handle any of it and it pretty much came out as a tired, sad, overly emotional, mean, and lazy person. So, I made a change.
I quit my job and I'm getting back on a normal sleep cycle. I've also decided that I can't try to get pregnant and lose weight at the same time. Personally, it overwhelms me to try to do both and I end up doing neither. So I've chosen to get back in the game and lose this weight.
I don't feel good about myself. I can feel my body parts jiggling when I move. I get short of breathe when I exert myself. I am completely out of shape and enough is enough.
I could write about how I feel all day long. That's not going to help me. I'll still be sitting here on my ass and not moving. So it's time to get to bed, I have some exercising to do in the morning.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Break Up Letter
To my Dearest Deposits of Fat,
We have spent quite a bit of time together. Through the years, we've parted ways only to meet again. You have been very close to me, and I'm sorry to say that it must happen again. We must say goodbye. While I have loved the warmth you have provided me, our relationship has been quite one sided. I just don't like YOU anymore. That is not fair. Relationships are a two way street and you my old friend, are going to be a road less traveled.
In saying goodbye to someone so close, you want to say I'll see you again. I cannot lie. I don't want to see you again, I will not see you again. You need to stay away forever. I could say that I hope you find a friend somewhere else, and I have a few I could send you to but that would be mean.
I just don't want to look at myself and hate you so much. We have bonded for a few years now, you have gotten quite comfortable on my stomach and thighs. It's time for you to get uncomfortable. Sorry that this break up letter isn't more YOU friendly, but it's time for ME to be happy.
Sincerely,
Your Soon to Be Ex-friend
We have spent quite a bit of time together. Through the years, we've parted ways only to meet again. You have been very close to me, and I'm sorry to say that it must happen again. We must say goodbye. While I have loved the warmth you have provided me, our relationship has been quite one sided. I just don't like YOU anymore. That is not fair. Relationships are a two way street and you my old friend, are going to be a road less traveled.
In saying goodbye to someone so close, you want to say I'll see you again. I cannot lie. I don't want to see you again, I will not see you again. You need to stay away forever. I could say that I hope you find a friend somewhere else, and I have a few I could send you to but that would be mean.
I just don't want to look at myself and hate you so much. We have bonded for a few years now, you have gotten quite comfortable on my stomach and thighs. It's time for you to get uncomfortable. Sorry that this break up letter isn't more YOU friendly, but it's time for ME to be happy.
Sincerely,
Your Soon to Be Ex-friend
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